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July 25, 2013
Long time, no entry. Shame on me! Lots of crazy stressful stuff has been happening all at once. Two house claims, 1 car accident, work, my dad. July was been the most horrible month for 2013!

Claim 1 is coming along (I hope.) after 3 adjusters and much back and forth with the contractor.

Claim 2 is not perfect but, by far, more simpler to deal with. Maybe that's because a contractor hasn't been involved yet. Even then, I've learned a great deal from my first claim/contractor experience that I won't be making the same mistake again.

I haven't come across any issues with the car accident yet. In fact, I've been slacking on my end because I have been so fucking stressed with everything else. I need to go back to see the physical therapist again before I head out to Colorado. The rear bumper has been fixed so I'm happy about that.

Work, too, has been stressful. The preparation for the migration ended up being more work than I had anticipated. Mostly because I was being overly cautious and went through a big piece that really wasn't up to me. I mean, it was my job to ensure a smooth migration but I wasn't responsible if the prep work the migration relied on wasn't accurate. Worst case scenario, the owners would have had to manually import their documents. But with my attentiveness all documents were imported and less than 15% of the documents were misfiled (again due to inaccurate information given to me). But that is now behind me! Upgrade is next!!!

I am going to California in August. My mom has planned a ceremony for my dad to "extend his life." It's necessary. I've learned that if this ceremony doesn't happen and if my dad becomes ill there is a chance he will not make it. There are alot of "IFs" but that's just how it goes I guess. The Husband refuses to believe this because he is all about science. On the other hand, a part of me believes it because I was raised to believe in shamanism but I was also educated in the states to know that science is a huge part of our lives. Still, there will always be this "higher power" that can't be explained away with science.

I managed to finish Gone Girl. I'd downloaded the sample months ago but couldn't get myself into it. I finally managed to read it but it still took me longer than I wanted to get through part 1. I was hooked on part two and managed to finish the book in less than 24 hours. I didn't like the ending though. I was hoping for a twist, a really big one: two writers who lost their jobs setting up a plot for their best seller book. Something. I was expecting something where the readers would get punk'd at the end. But nothing. It left me disappointed. On to my next book...

July 11, 2013
Another horrible day with the roof portion of the insurance claim today. I'm worried and stressed. I can only speculate that the series of migraines lately are being triggered by the all the stress this claim is causing. My anxiety attacks seem to be triggered by this also. I got really dizzy during one of my conversations today with the adjustor. It is just not looking good at all.

I don't know who to believe anymore. It's the contractor's words against the insurance company's words. Both companies will call to give me updates, but both are contradicting one another.

July 10, 2013
I had a dream, maybe more like a nightmare, about the damn roof! OMG. Seriously, if I'm dreaming about the roof, then my health is definitely in jeopardy. In my dream, the adjustor who was here yesterday spoke to the contractor and would only approve $5000 of the $7500 balance. I asked, "How can you not authorize the full payment when the 'extra' work was per code?" And then he informs me that he can authorize another $1700 by marking my race as Hispanic. Really? WTF does that mean? I even had the nerves to ask him if anyone else from the insurance company will notice that my race changed from Asian to Hispanic. Again, the shit that I dream about. Jeeze.

Remember that feeling I was trying to describe yesterday? The anxiety attack feeling. I felt that all day today. As if I just know something is about to go utterly wrong. I can't, however, quite get my fingers on it though. I guess we'll just have to wait and see what the bad news will be (if there will be any). I am hoping that it is nothing. I know there are some pretty stressful events going on in my life right now but I seriously hope it is nothing.

Unlike yesterday, I was pretty darn focused on my work today. I got a lot accomplish but there is still a ton to do. I'm just happy that I'm doing something different everyday. Tomorrow I get to spend more time with BIRT. It hasn't been a pleasant union but I will not be beatened! I will conquer BIRT. Just wait and see!

July 09, 2013
I had a dream about "The Ex-boyfriend." I'm not going to name names but will say he is from my high school days. In my dream he came over to visit me. I was living in a huge Victorian style home but it wasn't mine. As we spent some time together I asked him, "You're not here to stay forever are you? I will lose you again." He didn't respond. I asked him to be frank with me and he said, "For now, let's just spend this moment together." I didn't argue with that. Time was against me and it would only be a matter of waking up before he was gone again until the next dream. I made him some spaghetti with Jeremy Weed meatballs for dinner.

I woke up with butterflies in my tummy, along with that strange feeling like something wasn't right. Like something bad is about to happen and you're just waiting for whatever it is to go wrong. Anxiety is probably the right word to describe the feeling I had. I can't say why I had this dream. Does anyone really know why we dream the things we dream?

It has been confirmed that I will be sent to training at the end of July. From there I will head out to Sacramento. My mom has a ceremony planned for my dad and it is required that I am present. Anything to prevent my dad from falling ill and his life cut short. Daddy, your little girl will be home soon...hang in there!

July 04, 2013
Wedding DayWedding Day! Congratulations to my brother, Pozeb, and new SIL, Mai! They both deserve a fresh start and a lifetime together.

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The Husband and I took The Kids out to watch Despicable Me 2. Okay, fine. It was just as much for us as it was for them! It was such an awesome movie. The minions were hilarious. The shooting jelly scene was great. We even started shooting along with the movie! And then there was the "I Swear" scene. I couldn't tell what the song was at first. But when I did, I couldn't stop laughing. Too funny! Go see it if you haven't yet!

July 03, 2013
Traveling day! We made a quick stop in Des Moines, Iowa while on our way up to Minnesota. The Husband was able to get his 1.5 mile run in and The Kids were able to run around after sitting for 2.5 hours. And me, I got to chase The Kids around! I definitely think I was playing with them more than I was watching them! Semantics, right? Right.

Maisee Xiong: Pit stop in Des Moines
Maisee Xiong